i guess i did a lot of stuff this three-day weekend. i spent the first two days visiting colleges. which is really stupid. stupid and scary. i always figured there was always time enough that i wouldnt let it keep me down. most of the moments between the drifting around and the picture taking were spent imagining myself at the campus. then quickly returning to the notion that i dont have to worry about this yet. i'm in constant denial that the time is passing.
colleges are always different then how you picture them in your mind. i guess you'd never know what it looks like unless you saw the place. i can sum it up. in order i saw them.
app state. breathtaking. cover of Country Living material. little cabin town on the top of mountain. hippie town. cold. a top choice.
virginia tech. overwhelmingly large. kind of gloomy. love it.
radford. close to tech. little. i would feel like a senior in high school if i went there. just looking for where i'm applying next. not able to settle.
jmu. happy. just happy. cute little. mostly happy.
i went to sphinx with my friends when i got home. i loved the character of the place. the eyes in the front that watched you through the dimmed lighting and the smokey air. i shouldnt have liked it that much. but the a lightheaded spell each time i emptied my lungs gave me comfort and ease. a lot of the girls screamed and danced around. a lot of the boys tried to charm them. it was funny to watch.
i met a few people. which was the purpose really. i couldnt help but surmise them as stupid. one boy seemed actually cool at first. he talked of traveling, psychology, and culture. i liked it. until the bluntness and the simple mindedness he conveyed. when he said he wanted to kiss me, i nodded, i didn't want to kiss him. i didnt like how he said it outloud either. isnt that just suppose to happen? not be said. i'm glad he didnt try though. we continued to talk dispite the blunderingness of the seconds after he made that remark. it was still okay, until he asked me for the definition of "apathy". i walked away. see, i like smart boys. i hate it when people dont understand what i'm saying, whether its a philosophical conversation of just a defintion of a word. i truely my feelings for a boy were crippled the moment he asked me what "illogical" meant. i really dont even speak too abstrusely. but thats besides the point. the most meaningful words i got out of the other boy were "shit dawg shit". enough said.
anyways the senior stairwell looks great. i love school spirit and happy people. homecoming weeks seems to propagate both. i decided to paint crystal light boxes cause i didnt want to throw them away. ha. i'm stupid. but i like them. useless boxes, but i like how they turned out. boxes make better media then paper.
now i've got lots to do. math problem set. northanger abbey. maybe teacher cadet. maybe gov. so i'll be going. good night.
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