it's weird that whenever i say something,
the exact opposite happens.
its like admitting is resolving.
i'm not sure how this always happens.
also,
i wish sleep was different.
i decided this today getting out of my car. i just really didnt want to stand up at that moment, it was raining and i was tired.
i wanted to pause things. to sleep. but the world doesnt go on while i sleep.
just things stop for a bit, no time missing, just until i feel a little better.
its overwhelming to me that i live all my life all at once right in a row.
i just need a break. i dont want to die, no i just want to stop living for a couple minutes. thats all.
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